No, I’m not talking about the run for the roses at Churchill Downs, the Kentucky Derby. I’m talking about a phenomenal HP computer with a 1.5T hard drive and 8 GB of RAM that two generous corporate donors who wish to remain anonymous gave me yesterday. . .the computer that will allow me to continue this website.
It’s been one hell of a year. My beloved case manager moved to greener pastures in October. My mother passed away a couple of weeks later, and I was hit with a tsunami of grief that surprised the hell out of me. I didn’t know this is typical when our original abuser dies. I floundered badly for several months.
In January, I twisted my knee after hearing Ginny Nicarthy speak in Seattle. I didn’t know at the time how badly my knee was damaged because I have an unhealthy tolerance for pain. On Tuesday, I’m having surgery on my knee.
In February, I was diagnosed with sleep apnea which did in my brother-in-law when he was just 50 years old. My CPAP machine is fabulous, and I’m waking up each morning feeling refreshed rather than exhausted.
I’m giving myself the month of May to recover emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I am very blessed to have a new therapist and an extraordinarily competent team of physicians.
Eve Ensler is coming to Seattle on her book tour on May 18.
Julie Owens is hosting a seminar today on faith and domestic violence.
Faith. It is the irrational belief that we can make a difference. It is the knowing on a soul level that we are on the right path. It has sustained me through very dark hours and propelled me toward a vision that has been burning in my soul for 10 years.
Survivors of domestic violence and child abuse are soul sisters and brothers. We are courageous. We are fearless. We’re also just crazy enough to know we can make a dent in the universe if we stick together and learn from each other. It isn’t easy. It isn’t always fun. But, OMG, the victories are sweet.
Yes, it is great to have a computer that has the muscle to sustain this site. But, it is even more awesome to know there are people in my life who I can trust. It is beyond wonderful for someone to have enough faith in what I do to pop for a computer so that I can continue this work.
And, it is more humbling than I can express to have someone’s therapist half-way around the world suggest that reading the survivor stories on this site might be healing. That’s what it’s all about. Learning from each other’s best practices and kicking it up another notch until One Billion Rise around the world to demand an end to violence against women and children.
God bless you all. God bless you all.